Last Chance

Did you know that without my contacts, I am considered to be legally blind? Yep, my vision is so bad that the big E on the eye chart is just a memory from my younger days, since I can't even begin to see that it's there now. I'm guessing that this comes as a surprise to some of you. Probably because you were'nt aware that I even wore contacts. In fact, I'm willing to bet that unless you are a member of my immediate family, or one of my 5th grade classmates, you've never seen me in glasses. Why you may ask? Because I despise them! I wore them for 1 year in 5th grade before I convinced my mom that at 10 years old, I could not live without contacts. I've worn them every single day of my life since then. So in the past 16 years I have not worn glasses for more than 2 hours at a time. To give you even more of an idea, Nazar has probably seen me in glasses less than 10 times (we've been married for almost 8 years!) Well all of this has changed. For the next 2 weeks you will have your chance to see me in glasses. I'm getting lasik eye surgery on August 13, and for this reason I have to be out of my contacts until then. While I am thrilled to no end about the surgery, these next two weeks seem like an excruciatingly long trial that I will have to endure. It's probably impossible to understand what the big deal is, for those of you who aren't blind like me. You would think that I could see just fine as long as I wore the glasses. Well unfortunately that is not the case for me. Even with the correct glasses prescription, it is very very difficult for me to function on a normal level. I have no depth perception and no peripheral vision. Basically I can see only when I stand perfectly still and look straight ahead. I havn't even been out of my contacts for a full 24 hours yet, but it feels like eternity already. Driving is completely out of the question for me, so I'm planning on being a hermit as much as possible for the next 13 days. It's hard to explain how insecure it makes me feel to not be able to see. My inclination is to revert into myself and stop functioning until I can see again, but with 3 kids to take care of, I know that I have to suck it up and get on with my life. Looking back I'm sure that these 2 weeks will only be remembered as a minor annoyance, and then I'll have the rest of my life with great vision!